The Lonely Smile

The day is coming to an end, there comes the night filled with darkness

Pain and suffering is awaken, my mind trapped in the prison of loneliness

Abandoned by the past, trapped in the present hoping for the mercy of the future

Slowly i move towards the desk grab my pen and paper to complete the task

I transfer my pain to the innocent paper, hoping the pain wont come again

                                                                                                The Pain of the never again

The fog and darkness cover my eyes as i keep walking in the flames of hell

I wish there could be a place where I can rest, a place to ease my mind and heart

I keep holding on i keep hoping i keep dreaming, that the pain will wash away

Stuck in these gates of hell unable to escape, my mind filled the vision of your face

                                                                                                Hoping for mercy again

I stay alone wondering of how it used to be, when you were the reason i smiled

I remember the moments you were here, you were the ground beneath my feet

I wish to go back to that time, The moment you were the air i could breathe

I wonder, is it really gone? Will i see you again? is it true that this battle has been lost

                                                                                    I wish to see you again

When i first saw you smile, you were the perfect thing i ever saw

Even though i couldn't understand my feelings, love was one thing i knew

Even though i couldn't say it, but my mind, my heart and my eyes you i saw

Each time I was apart from you, my inner self only desired your presence

I was down could no longer move, could no longer see without your presence

I was in love again

Whenever we were together, above us the sun was shining bright

When i was close to you, wanting you was the feeling i couldn't fight

Even when all hopes were gone, you brought the brightness on my sight

The joy of hearing you say i love you, touched me deep within my heart

It was you and only you, who made me believe in forever and no longer the past

Until darkness arose again

An angel you once were, a demon you became i can't recognize

Every word of love you spoke, now a hammer breaking me into pieces

Every promise you gave, now lies that are pulling me in lonely grave

You who gave me heaven on earth, you now burn me in the depth of hell

It’s a strange mountain i can't reach top, it’s a prison i can never escape

I can never smile again

Deep into this darkness alone i stay, Everyday to the high heaven i pray

Broken and alone i am, hoping for salvation that’s seems so far away

Everytime i try to run something holds me back, it’s the sound of your lies

I know the day will come, i know the light will shine bright again

The moment when I Will be free from your lies, free from your pain

The day is near though it seems so far ahead, until then I can't run

                                                                                                                I pray to be free again

Poet: Onesmo Ndile

Edited by: Eunice Tossy Jonassy

Black or White

Black or white our blood still the same

Tall or short our heart shaped the same

Rich or poor our paths are always the same

No difference if good in heaven you stay

No classes if bad in hell forever in flame

Black or white not important to dust we go

Black or White we our flesh is the same

No matter who we our love should be the same 

 Poet: Onesmo Ndile

Sinner's cry

Sinner's Cry.
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As i move cross the wind of loneliness, slowly drowning in the ocean of emptiness
Flashes of my life passes through my eyes, i see nothing in the sinner's eyes
Missing the moments that i had the smile of my face, the time i won every race
I can't go back yesterday no longer exists, can't move forward tomorrow is hard to predict
My ship nears the ice berg, survival seems impossible to beg
My heart has been trembling in fear, my eyes drowning in my tears
Pen and paper are the only friends I have, listening to every word I say
Guiding me to my lonely grave, wiping every tears i cry.
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Poet; Onesmo Ndile

Of the never again pt 2

m laughing, but my heart is is deep sorrow
My body is becoming weak to follow
Evrynight im afraid to sleep for the fear of tomorrow
For what was once my happiness turned into sorrow
What once was my heaven to hell is where i go
The more i keep trying to keep this love safe
Slowly i realize that i keep loosing myself
A believer of love i ignore the pain that i have
Frightened by loneliness i hold on to this emptiness
I can't hold on to this this feeling called love
I can't hold on to this pain that I have
Its time to let go of this emptiness
Time to move on to tenderness of loneliness
Im not hoping to see you again
Im not hopind to ever be with love again
Finally I've decided to let go of the feeling i held on
It's time to let go, im letting go of the never again.
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Poet: Onesmo Ndile

Sleeping

Darling,I love the way you value me and my heart,
When its broke you accept me as when its hurts,
When its whole you love me as when it is fat,
I don't know if I could find anybody like you,
I don't know if in this world there is sweetness that I see in you.
Sleeping,take me darling when I am tired and when am not,
Sleeping take me darling when am mad and when am not,
Sleeping take me darling when I have many thoughts or not,
Sleeping I will take you darling anywhere in this country or across the globe.
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Poet; Eunice Tossy Jonasy

Of the never again

It is true,we were perfect,

We made people love us,

It is true we were the best,

We made  them laugh with us,

Here I am letting go of the never again,

You know maybe it already happen,

Am sure we had a moment,

Yeah sure we had our time,

But I messed it up yeah,

I did,

I needed to,

I had a little growing up to do,

Getting back to you,

I tried,I guess you already moved on,

But you know me,

You know me,

Am not good at begging,

Apart from cooking,

You know me,

I tried thrice to get back to you,

You denied it cause it was all up to you,

You know me,

I try harder in life,

I make magic work,

But am not good,

I don't do good,

When it comes to the affairs of the heart,

So I tried a million times,

By a million I mean thrice,

And I made up my mind,

To let go of the never again.

Poet: Eunice Tossy Jonasy

I Will Keep You

you stole their birds, they are planning to kill you

You stole my heart ,i am planning to keep you

You stole their fish, they tried to kill you

You stole my world, I gave it for you to keep

They say you  find a  friend in a pet

I found a family in you

Though I talked you didn’t listen

Petting you made me feel listened

And though you slept all the hours

I loved watching you sleep in my towers

They say you bring us asthma

I believed you would never hurt me that far

I loved you

I don't know why I am writing this before you

Actually died,

Am sorry

I cant help and protect you

But I hope everytime you ran into my arms you

Felt safe and protected

‘cause i wanted you to feel safe, I hope you

Felt how I wanted you to feel.

Poet: Eunice Tossy Jonassy